Fear of change.

Being at urban connection this summer has been such a wonderful experience for me but its also been a change from my normal routine. Usually I would just be at the resturant working in the kitchen. Summers used to consist of sleeping all day and up all night, nothing to productive but it was fun. I recently went to go chill with them cause I haven't in a while and things seemed so different than they used to be. After leaving there I felt kinda sad because it seemed in that instant that life was just changing so rapidly for me. Friends have left for good, my summer at Urban Connection is almost over, I have to move(moving sucks so bad) and I still need to make sure everything goes smoothly this upcoming semester. Starting something new can sometimes be a burden when new obstacles keep popping up out of nowhere. I don't fear change, but for that brief moment I did. For that brief moment I just wanted things to stay the same for just a bit longer because fear and doubt had crept up on me. Then I remembered Philippians 4:6 and I prayed about it. There is nothing for me to fear when I know I have God on my side and he will take care of all my problems if I just have faith in him. There is no need to doubt myself or any situations because I have family and friends who are there for me. I will never be alone in my time of need because God has never forsaken me and he never will. I think I've been placed at Urban not just to be a positive role model for the children, but it has also brought me closer to God. I enjoy what I do everyday from getting to run outside with children to bringing a smile to there face after they've been crying. It's my joy in life and I hope I can keep making a difference in childrens lives for the rest of my life. - Josh